friends … ???
why it is so hard to keep one friend closer to your heart? a question that combines theories and predictions, we may never know is it us or them or the world; the moment we trust someone few seconds we push him away because we feel deep inside that we have had trusted the wrong person, i do not regret any friendships not in the past or the present, but i have learned my lesson; it is not about trust somehow you can trust the waiter or the taxi driver or even the house keeper; who they might secure your life for ever and take care of you. perhaps its just us simply we cant keep a friend, maybe we have boundaries or just have no time, too many possibilities, i do not blame them, i blame myself, that is a massive topic to discus as well, the blame …
i met too many people in my life, friends from school, from collage from work, i even do not remember few of them but on the other hand i still prefer my best friends from school, our friendship was just clear and realistic based on truth and fun, now it is just hate and jealousy or hesitation the problem am kind of a guy who give a lot, and i wasted a lot of time giving and trusting and thinking that i have a best friend a close one .. we all struggle with the same case,but i was wrong i thought so, i imagined, it is really sad frustrating, i gave a lo.t i felt for once that i have a friend, now am just shaking my head, and asking why?
we collaborate, and we support, but suddenly our genuine giving just fade away like dust; it is really shocking and hurtful, painful maybe, you open your eyes and you see bad people; and you say; in your heart, beside all the sound whispering in your head, they are bad, they are bad people; the solution is not pushing them, it is by pushing yourself away and keep a distance that could still hold small promises, but theirs no way for promises, because a selfish friend will never change once the selfishness exposed, you know that this person is just ugly ..